My first beta is tomorrow morning (16dpt/14dpiui). I have tested twice at home. Yesterday there was a faint line, so faint it could have been evap. So today I tested with a digital and it says PREGNANT!!
While this is great news, this is also the same pattern as my last quasi-successful cycle where I ended up miscarrying. I have almost no symptoms aside from AF-like cramps and headaches which is exactly what I usually get when AF is about to visit.
I am keeping my fingers crossed for an unambiguous beta tomorrow and of course a doubling at the second beta.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Hallelujah! Thank you Colorado!
Regardless of your views on the turnout of the presidential election last night, I think most of us infertiles can rejoice in the fact that Amendent 48 was turned down in Colorado. For those of you who had not heard about this, this was the pro-life initiative to give person-status at the point of conception (i.e., embryos would be persons and entitled to all the rights we as people get in this country). I am so happy that people recognized the implications of such an initiative (or voted the way they did even if they didn't understand the implications).
Wooohoo!
Wooohoo!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
IUI #1 Take 2 tomorrow!!
I triggered last night for my first IUI tomorrow. On Tuesday I had two follicles one at 22 and another at 18.5 and my e2 was 471. I am a little nervous about tomorrow but mostly excited. I am trying not to get my hopes up but if I am being honest...they are up.
I was freaking out most of the weekend because on Friday (CD13) I had such little progress. I had one 10 and one 11. I am in a wedding on Saturday and was sure that I wouldnt be ready to trigger until tomorrow making Saturday the IUI day and of course I wouldn't be able to do it. Thankfully, my ovaries kicked it into gear and I am ready now.
Wish me luck tomorrow and send any spare success vibes you have my way!
I was freaking out most of the weekend because on Friday (CD13) I had such little progress. I had one 10 and one 11. I am in a wedding on Saturday and was sure that I wouldnt be ready to trigger until tomorrow making Saturday the IUI day and of course I wouldn't be able to do it. Thankfully, my ovaries kicked it into gear and I am ready now.
Wish me luck tomorrow and send any spare success vibes you have my way!
Monday, October 20, 2008
Hello IUI #1 Take #2...
Well its been a while since my last post but there really wasn't much going on during my break cycle other than work so I spared you the boring details. We have two exciting things happen during the break:
1. Our 3 year anniversary was earlier this month, exciting.
2. We went on our annual anniversary trip. This year we went to Vegas for 5 days.
Vegas was really fun and nice to get a break from work but imagine my surprise (and angst) when the very first day I start having AF spotting. I was of course freaking out that we would miss the day 3 u/s and bloodwork and have to be on another break cycle. Thankfully, the full flow waited until just the right day making our first day back, Day 3. (though due to a medical emergency of a passenger on our flight home, we were delayed in Charlotte for a day meaning I ended up missing the Day 3 appt and rescheduling for Day 4).
The Day 3 u/s and bloodwork were much better this month. My e2 was 33 (compared with 96 on day 3 last cycle). So we are all systems go for take 2 at IUI #1. My next appt is tomorrow morning for Day 10.
I of course have dragged my feet on setting up an RE appt. I just can't decide which clinic to go with. I am deciding between two: Bosto.n I.VF. and CRM at Brigham and Women's. Did any of you "interview" more than one RE/clinic??
1. Our 3 year anniversary was earlier this month, exciting.
2. We went on our annual anniversary trip. This year we went to Vegas for 5 days.
Vegas was really fun and nice to get a break from work but imagine my surprise (and angst) when the very first day I start having AF spotting. I was of course freaking out that we would miss the day 3 u/s and bloodwork and have to be on another break cycle. Thankfully, the full flow waited until just the right day making our first day back, Day 3. (though due to a medical emergency of a passenger on our flight home, we were delayed in Charlotte for a day meaning I ended up missing the Day 3 appt and rescheduling for Day 4).
The Day 3 u/s and bloodwork were much better this month. My e2 was 33 (compared with 96 on day 3 last cycle). So we are all systems go for take 2 at IUI #1. My next appt is tomorrow morning for Day 10.
I of course have dragged my feet on setting up an RE appt. I just can't decide which clinic to go with. I am deciding between two: Bosto.n I.VF. and CRM at Brigham and Women's. Did any of you "interview" more than one RE/clinic??
Friday, September 19, 2008
Life goes on
Nothing much is new here. Its day 11 of my IUI-turned-break cycle so waaay to early for an action to be going on,
I am really trying to get back into my healthy routine like I was earlier this year but I am failing, I really don't know why.I think perhaps I need some counseling.
Also, I am trying to find an RE. I think its more than time to move on from the OB. While I have been pleased with the IF specialists at my OB, I would feel better going to an RE sooner. There are many options to choose from in this area, which is making the decision difficult. Do I go with one of the two big clinics? They both have a good reputation (for the most part). One is closer than the other but not by much. Or do I go with one of the smaller groups within the top hospitals? I might get more individualized attention but less flexibility on timing etc. I am also afraid they will not accept me until I lose more weight.
Choices, choices. At least I have them. I know for some of you there is only one choice and it is not always the best one.
I am really trying to get back into my healthy routine like I was earlier this year but I am failing, I really don't know why.I think perhaps I need some counseling.
Also, I am trying to find an RE. I think its more than time to move on from the OB. While I have been pleased with the IF specialists at my OB, I would feel better going to an RE sooner. There are many options to choose from in this area, which is making the decision difficult. Do I go with one of the two big clinics? They both have a good reputation (for the most part). One is closer than the other but not by much. Or do I go with one of the smaller groups within the top hospitals? I might get more individualized attention but less flexibility on timing etc. I am also afraid they will not accept me until I lose more weight.
Choices, choices. At least I have them. I know for some of you there is only one choice and it is not always the best one.
Friday, September 12, 2008
IUI #1 canceled
Went in for CD3 bloodwork and u/s this morning. The u/s tech said I was cyst free though she could not find my left ovary. She finally (after much pain and maneuvering) found something and measured it but I am not convinced it was actually anything meaningful.
My e2 was high (though not terribly high--71) on my bloodwork and since the doctor didn't think we got a look at the left ovary they are concerned there is a cyst and want me to take a break.
I am upset of course but will manage. The thing I am most upset about is that I have no idea when my next cycle will be as without meds they can be sooo long. But I will keep my fingers crossed for less than 50 days.
I am going to focus on losing weight during the break and getting my exercising back on track. I was running 10-15 miles per week and since the m/c have run maybe 3 times total. My clothes haven't been fitting very well and I feel like crap because of all the crappy food I have been eating.
My e2 was high (though not terribly high--71) on my bloodwork and since the doctor didn't think we got a look at the left ovary they are concerned there is a cyst and want me to take a break.
I am upset of course but will manage. The thing I am most upset about is that I have no idea when my next cycle will be as without meds they can be sooo long. But I will keep my fingers crossed for less than 50 days.
I am going to focus on losing weight during the break and getting my exercising back on track. I was running 10-15 miles per week and since the m/c have run maybe 3 times total. My clothes haven't been fitting very well and I feel like crap because of all the crappy food I have been eating.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
IUI #1 here we come...
Well yesterday it became official...cycle 18 was a big fat bust.
So now we will be moving on to IUI. My plan for this cycle is Clomid 100mg with an Ovidrel trigger and a single IUI on ovulation day. I am hoping for a slightly increased response to the 100mgs of Clomid this time as last cycle I only had one egg (which I know is all it takes but I wouldn't mind increasing the odds).
I am pretty sure that CD 1 will be tomorrow as I am feeling very crampy and it feels like I am spotting (though I am on a train so I am not sure about that).
Anyone who has gone through an IUI (or 2 or 6) have any advice??
So now we will be moving on to IUI. My plan for this cycle is Clomid 100mg with an Ovidrel trigger and a single IUI on ovulation day. I am hoping for a slightly increased response to the 100mgs of Clomid this time as last cycle I only had one egg (which I know is all it takes but I wouldn't mind increasing the odds).
I am pretty sure that CD 1 will be tomorrow as I am feeling very crampy and it feels like I am spotting (though I am on a train so I am not sure about that).
Anyone who has gone through an IUI (or 2 or 6) have any advice??
Friday, September 5, 2008
Doesn't look like a birthday BFP for me
I caved and tested this morning (12dpo) rather than waiting until my birthday on Sunday. I was feeling hopeful last weekend as I was having mysterious cramping but that promptly went away and left me symptomless. So rather than be disappointed on my b-day I decided to test today and...
BFN :(
My beta is Monday and the doctor said to continue the progesterone supplements until then so i guess I will comply.
Y kept asking me last week what I want for my birthday and I was saying a positive pregnancy test. Today he said if I still wanted a positive test for my birthday he would have our friend K (7 months PG) pee on a stick for me. I had to laugh at the lengths he was willing to go to for fulfilling my birthday request (and simulataneously cry that that was the only way I was likely to actually get my request).
Anyhow, I will post again on Monday when the official beta results are in...
BFN :(
My beta is Monday and the doctor said to continue the progesterone supplements until then so i guess I will comply.
Y kept asking me last week what I want for my birthday and I was saying a positive pregnancy test. Today he said if I still wanted a positive test for my birthday he would have our friend K (7 months PG) pee on a stick for me. I had to laugh at the lengths he was willing to go to for fulfilling my birthday request (and simulataneously cry that that was the only way I was likely to actually get my request).
Anyhow, I will post again on Monday when the official beta results are in...
Saturday, August 30, 2008
1 week down (almost)...
Tommorrow I will be 1/2 way done with this 2 week wait. This one is going by very slowly despite work being crazy busy.
I went in yesterday for my post-ovulation progesterone test and the numbers look great! My p4 was 30.1 which is very close to what is was on our quasi-successful cycle. Last cycle it was only 11 so I am hoping for a better outcome this time!!
I will be testing at home next Sunday (my birthday) and my beta will be Monday the 8th. Feels like forever :(
No symptoms to report. Yesterday I felt a little crampy but could be gas (hehe). I started progesterone supplements last night. Last month I had no "symptoms"/side effects of p4 (sore boobs, cramps, etc.) so I am welcoming lots this week!!
I went in yesterday for my post-ovulation progesterone test and the numbers look great! My p4 was 30.1 which is very close to what is was on our quasi-successful cycle. Last cycle it was only 11 so I am hoping for a better outcome this time!!
I will be testing at home next Sunday (my birthday) and my beta will be Monday the 8th. Feels like forever :(
No symptoms to report. Yesterday I felt a little crampy but could be gas (hehe). I started progesterone supplements last night. Last month I had no "symptoms"/side effects of p4 (sore boobs, cramps, etc.) so I am welcoming lots this week!!
Monday, August 25, 2008
Off topic--reading fun
I have seen this "meme" on a bunch of your blogs and really wanted to go through the list to see what I have read/want to read. I am posting it here so that I have a list to come back to in a few weeks when I am buying some new books (my MIL always gives me a gift certificate to a bookstore for my birthday!).
1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Underline (or mark in a different color) the books you LOVE
1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte (one of my favorites. I made dolls in high school of all the characters for a school project!!)
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible - yeah, right. (I have never read the Bible cover to cover but I did read the Book of God which is a shortened version written to read more like a story. It was good).
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier ("I dreamt I went to Manderley again", this is the first line of this book and for some reason I have never forgotten it. It was a Jeopardy question one night and I was so excited I knew the answer!)
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell (love it, my only complaint with this book is that it ended!!)
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis (hated it...)
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis (hated it)
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown (I know some literary folks find the hype over this book obnoxious but I think its a great story and it amazes me how he was able to take such well known stories/works of art and weave such a fascinating mystery)
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery (so classic)
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood ("Dont let the bastards grind you down"! Its a great IF motto if you replace bastards with fertiles!!)
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding (a disgusting Jr High required reading)
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding (I saw the movie and read the second book but never the first)
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker (11th grade english torture reading)
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl (THIS IS MY ALL-TIME FAVORITE BOOK!!!!!!!!!!)
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo
1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Underline (or mark in a different color) the books you LOVE
1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte (one of my favorites. I made dolls in high school of all the characters for a school project!!)
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible - yeah, right. (I have never read the Bible cover to cover but I did read the Book of God which is a shortened version written to read more like a story. It was good).
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier ("I dreamt I went to Manderley again", this is the first line of this book and for some reason I have never forgotten it. It was a Jeopardy question one night and I was so excited I knew the answer!)
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell (love it, my only complaint with this book is that it ended!!)
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis (hated it...)
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis (hated it)
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown (I know some literary folks find the hype over this book obnoxious but I think its a great story and it amazes me how he was able to take such well known stories/works of art and weave such a fascinating mystery)
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery (so classic)
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood ("Dont let the bastards grind you down"! Its a great IF motto if you replace bastards with fertiles!!)
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding (a disgusting Jr High required reading)
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding (I saw the movie and read the second book but never the first)
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker (11th grade english torture reading)
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl (THIS IS MY ALL-TIME FAVORITE BOOK!!!!!!!!!!)
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo
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