tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40903599447037009462024-02-08T01:56:47.575-08:00Adventures In-fertilityLanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.comBlogger53125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-58263325685128527852009-04-06T11:18:00.000-07:002009-04-06T12:11:33.292-07:00What a beautiful sound!This week is such an exciting week...First, I am 12w2d today!! So very close to that second trimester.Second, I heard the heartbeat today on the doppler at the doctors!! It was so beautiful and strong at 173 bpm! I got so excited about the sound that I forgot to ask all my questions. I will probably have to call and leave a message for the doctor as I am running out of progesterone and wondering LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-33738107385705150322009-03-25T09:42:00.000-07:002009-03-25T09:51:30.309-07:00Still alive and still pregnant!Whew, work has been picking back up and I am wiped by the time I get home. But everything is going well here. I am 10w4d, still feeling no symptoms (except I get tired a little more easily). I am not sleeping very well at night. No matter what time I go to bed I wake up for 2 hours in the middle of the night. Its quite annoying. I think its mostly because I used to be a stomach and side sleeper LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-33803732836702082882009-03-09T09:37:00.000-07:002009-03-09T09:45:29.508-07:00First o/b appt...check!I just got back from my first o/b appt with this pregnancy. I have prayed and prayed that I would make it this far and so far so good!I am 8w1d today. I still have no symptoms, which I totally hate but I am trying my hardest to enjoy it and be thankful. You know its like the grass is always greener. I have no symptoms and so I wish desparately for them but if I was sick all day I would probably LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-253856838934272252009-02-26T14:24:00.000-08:002009-02-26T14:39:43.216-08:00First u/sFirst off- thank you all for your responses to my last post. I was feeling very anxious as you could tell. I asked for a fourth beta, which I had last Friday and the results were great (12,394). That made me feel better until an hour later when I went to the bathroom and found blood. It was a tiny amount so I tried not to worry but it did take away the comfort the beta had added.Anyway...I made LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-47518101800121787342009-02-18T09:20:00.000-08:002009-02-18T09:51:55.059-08:00How do you keep anxiety at bay?A good friend of mine told me that she was PG the day before my third beta last week. I had been waiting (fearing) this announcement for a while. Not that I am not thrilled for her. I truly am. She and her husband had been trying for a while (slightly less than 1 year but still a while). She is very early and in fact is due 1 week before I am. When she heard our good beta results on Friday sheLanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-22736643003636895042009-02-13T15:56:00.000-08:002009-02-13T16:00:07.780-08:00Is this really happening?!Beta #3 was today (finally, thought this day would not ever get here). My big envelope theory was correct again...I got a call at 1:30 with the excellent news that my levels have continued to double and is now 1131!!I now get to have an u/s in just under two weeks. I am so happy that this baby is sticking around (at least for now)!I really hope this is the one.I also am looking forward to this LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-12694709148594970172009-02-11T10:15:00.000-08:002009-02-11T10:58:30.831-08:00An analogy to small envelope, big envelope...Beta #2 day. How I hate this day.Having now had "good" news delivered three times by my doctor following a beta and 4+ times receiving bad news (all the second and third betas), I felt I had enough of a sample to try and tease out a pattern. And a pattern I found...Remember when you were applying to colleges and would incessantly check the mailbox every afternoon? Everyone knew that you could LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-87056360828980047182009-02-11T10:05:00.000-08:002009-02-11T10:15:28.753-08:00First week in February...moment of truthI felt nothing during the 2ww. No sore bb's, no cramps, no naseau, nothing. During the other 2 cycles where I acheived a BFP, I didn't really feel much either, though this one still felt suspiciously quiet.My beta was scheduled for Friday Feb 6 (12dpiui). I was debating all week whether to test on Wednesday, 10dpiui, Thursday, or Friday morning. I decided not to test on Wednesday as my past LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-55630879136806980712009-02-11T08:56:00.000-08:002009-02-11T10:05:35.982-08:00January...getting back on the wagonJanuary brought with it a new cycle!! Little did I know that this would be the most messed up cycle ever (at least for me, I am sure some of you have dealt with much worse!).Cycle #22 began on January 5. Of course this was a terribly busy work week with client meetings off-site. There was no way I could do CD3 b/w and u/s. The doctor kindly agreed to CD4 instead. I am one of the lucky few who LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-36768649117769753522009-02-10T06:14:00.001-08:002009-02-10T06:20:39.161-08:00December, short and boringNot much happened in December. It was almost a complete break from TTC as we were just waiting for the next cycle to begin (which wouldnt be until January). We did have the recurrent loss testing done on the 29th but other than them taking a whole lot of blood, that was uneventful.We survived Christmas. It was a little tough with my sister-in-law having just found out the sex and my cousin LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-89275782620211211582009-02-10T06:06:00.000-08:002009-02-10T06:14:33.239-08:00The rest of November was dark and cold...After we found out that we would m/c #2, November became a very dark month. I did finally tell my mom about our IF struggles and losses. Prior to that only a few good friends new anything. I am not sure I felt any sense of relief or comfort from telling her like I thought I would. It was nice in a way to know that she knew and was there for me but I just really didn't want to talk about it and LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-20123982985889492502009-02-10T06:03:00.001-08:002009-02-10T06:06:52.285-08:00Is anyone still out there? Its been a whileI can't believe its been over 2 months since my last post. I think everyone can guess how that cycle ended. I had another m/c. I was so devastated that I just retreated into a personal cave of sorts and couldn't talk about it. I tried to stay away from all things baby/TTC related (except others' blogs, which I kept reading but commenting was sparse).There is so much to update on over the past LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-84878248821453960372008-11-17T13:21:00.000-08:002008-11-17T13:30:29.906-08:00I can't believe this is happening againBeta #2 is not good. We were aiming for 280 and it is only 122. Which means since Thursday it hasn't even doubled. The doctor says its either a lost twin or another miscarriage. Isn't it fucked up that I am desperately hoping its the former?I go back on Wednesdsay. Though my guess is Wednesday's results will be inconclusive and I will have to go back on Friday. The doctor said I could wait tillLanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-1115143227991654562008-11-17T06:41:00.000-08:002008-11-17T06:51:15.127-08:00So nervous for beta #2 todayThe blood has been drawn for beta #2 and now the waiting begins. I watched the lady enter the requisition into the system and I think she put priority elevated instead of stat. Which means I may not hear until later this afternoon. How I am feeling about the results depends on the minute. My boobs are somewhat sore though not excrutiatingly so as I hear some people describe. I have waves of LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-43854539863638944912008-11-14T08:25:00.000-08:002008-11-14T08:34:53.288-08:001st beta is partially in!My first beta (14dpiui) is 70! While that is not the highest number in the world it is double my level during the cycle I miscarried. My second beta is not until Monday, which seems like a long time away. By my calculations I should have two doublings occur by Monday. 48 hours would be Saturday so then my level should be 140ish. A second 48 would be Monday making my levels 280ish.So 280 is my LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-53049254549690232012008-11-14T04:53:00.000-08:002008-11-14T05:02:04.913-08:00No I am not witholding the beta results...grrrI missed the damn call from the doctors office yesterday. On Thursdays the infertility nurse is out and I always have tests/procedures on that day! The person who fills in just isn't as responsive (probably because she has other responsibilities and is just filling in). I waited all day and she finally called at 5:11 but I was on a conference call so I missed it. I really want to know my numberLanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-88189221264243377562008-11-12T10:56:00.001-08:002008-11-12T14:51:28.948-08:002ww is over tomorrow!My first beta is tomorrow morning (16dpt/14dpiui). I have tested twice at home. Yesterday there was a faint line, so faint it could have been evap. So today I tested with a digital and it says PREGNANT!!While this is great news, this is also the same pattern as my last quasi-successful cycle where I ended up miscarrying. I have almost no symptoms aside from AF-like cramps and headaches which is LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-28225751178923816102008-11-05T12:57:00.000-08:002008-11-05T15:48:06.315-08:00Hallelujah! Thank you Colorado!Regardless of your views on the turnout of the presidential election last night, I think most of us infertiles can rejoice in the fact that Amendent 48 was turned down in Colorado. For those of you who had not heard about this, this was the pro-life initiative to give person-status at the point of conception (i.e., embryos would be persons and entitled to all the rights we as people get in this LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-10736025408531033452008-10-29T07:59:00.001-07:002008-10-29T10:41:07.636-07:00IUI #1 Take 2 tomorrow!!I triggered last night for my first IUI tomorrow. On Tuesday I had two follicles one at 22 and another at 18.5 and my e2 was 471. I am a little nervous about tomorrow but mostly excited. I am trying not to get my hopes up but if I am being honest...they are up.I was freaking out most of the weekend because on Friday (CD13) I had such little progress. I had one 10 and one 11. I am in a weddingLanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-26773041514953972812008-10-20T11:11:00.000-07:002008-10-20T11:35:59.557-07:00Hello IUI #1 Take #2...Well its been a while since my last post but there really wasn't much going on during my break cycle other than work so I spared you the boring details. We have two exciting things happen during the break:1. Our 3 year anniversary was earlier this month, exciting.2. We went on our annual anniversary trip. This year we went to Vegas for 5 days.Vegas was really fun and nice to get a break from LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-88550321310622192422008-09-19T04:56:00.000-07:002008-09-19T05:08:09.210-07:00Life goes onNothing much is new here. Its day 11 of my IUI-turned-break cycle so waaay to early for an action to be going on,I am really trying to get back into my healthy routine like I was earlier this year but I am failing, I really don't know why.I think perhaps I need some counseling.Also, I am trying to find an RE. I think its more than time to move on from the OB. While I have been pleased with the IFLanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-62938944092735841292008-09-12T13:33:00.000-07:002008-09-12T13:41:52.456-07:00IUI #1 canceledWent in for CD3 bloodwork and u/s this morning. The u/s tech said I was cyst free though she could not find my left ovary. She finally (after much pain and maneuvering) found something and measured it but I am not convinced it was actually anything meaningful.My e2 was high (though not terribly high--71) on my bloodwork and since the doctor didn't think we got a look at the left ovary they are LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-31685464741573737402008-09-09T16:51:00.000-07:002008-09-09T17:02:49.441-07:00IUI #1 here we come...Well yesterday it became official...cycle 18 was a big fat bust.So now we will be moving on to IUI. My plan for this cycle is Clomid 100mg with an Ovidrel trigger and a single IUI on ovulation day. I am hoping for a slightly increased response to the 100mgs of Clomid this time as last cycle I only had one egg (which I know is all it takes but I wouldn't mind increasing the odds).I am pretty LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-11950288214173515922008-09-05T09:46:00.001-07:002008-09-05T09:59:16.496-07:00Doesn't look like a birthday BFP for meI caved and tested this morning (12dpo) rather than waiting until my birthday on Sunday. I was feeling hopeful last weekend as I was having mysterious cramping but that promptly went away and left me symptomless. So rather than be disappointed on my b-day I decided to test today and...BFN :(My beta is Monday and the doctor said to continue the progesterone supplements until then so i guess I willLanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4090359944703700946.post-45481251191553643152008-08-30T07:16:00.000-07:002008-08-30T07:22:42.273-07:001 week down (almost)...Tommorrow I will be 1/2 way done with this 2 week wait. This one is going by very slowly despite work being crazy busy.I went in yesterday for my post-ovulation progesterone test and the numbers look great! My p4 was 30.1 which is very close to what is was on our quasi-successful cycle. Last cycle it was only 11 so I am hoping for a better outcome this time!!I will be testing at home next Sunday LanYhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05393532448434784783noreply@blogger.com3